I've written a new piece for Guardian comment is free belief. Some interesting comments at the end - what do you think?
Meditation is an emotional rollercoaster
With its surges of rage, disappointment, doubt, yearning or regret, meditation isn't all about relaxation
About four days into my first meditation retreat, I started crying. Not little droplets of tears, but great, big, uncontrolled sobs – it felt like I was throwing up wave after wave of stale sadness. I'd expected the long days of sitting to be boring, annoying, physically demanding and (with a bit of luck) illuminating, so to find myself repeatedly breaking down into a noisy heap of grief came as a shock. These spontaneous outbursts of wailing continued throughout the month-long programme – it says much for the teachers' equanimity that they didn't chuck me out...